this place should be nothing, but the fences are here,
where i was born in the center of a cement yawn.
of course it's boring!
take me somewhere as someone else. the airport is expanding.
the TV is nice too but is a coward,
& my father cries quietly sometimes just looking at it when no one's speaking.
my mother is forever a simply-decorated backyard.
i still ran away from home for my own reasons,
but i find nothing but the same odd jobs:
studying new words & how the ego is a bastard.
better to have stolen from the ruins!
it is not as i expected nor planned.
something always dies all over again—
only i keep coming back to visit my own absence,
& that is all i will or can say about that.
"Ethan Has Nowhere To Go" was a short story written by Jeremy Hight. It was about to be published when he pulled it. It will never be published. These solicited works are Ethan. These works are the story.
The text exists only to be used as a nameless trigger, as a bit of back end, like HTML code.
Matthew Sherling has recently moved from San Francisco to a small town in Georgia, where he will surely continue to foster his internet addiction & wander around the woods. He runs the interview blog Cutty Spot & the online magazine Gesture. He hasn't slept since 2004.
Matthew says, "I carved some of my favorite moments out of the story & tweaked them to form a piece with its own energy."