Huggin #3, #4, and #6
Huginn #3
Love flakes as thin as onion skin,
recoiling and curling like paper
on fire. My mouth tastes of chive blossoms
and catmint, dirt-ward my tastes grow,
in the firmament, the soft bruises engender
tenderness: if over chicken paprika
we discuss Berryman’s collapse
into the gentle, ash-wet lust that
leaps off bridges into the ice
accumulating from years of
midwestern stoic grayness.
When I say I love you, I don’t
mean to bring the corpse hounds
to find cadavers, I mean you—
even chapped and wind-burnt—
I mean the soft trembling between
the idea of release and refuge
from the dreams that masquerade
as memories and cause us both
to wrench. This thought I will
speak to you through my corvus
tongue, break ready to rip carrion
but will remember every feather
fallen from those in my murder.
Huginn #4
In the night-gloom, Ratatoskr
bores into the bark of a branch
of the world tree:
Walter Simonson
wrote us all as aliens, and this
tree floated in space
in four-color page splashes
the vertigo
into the mid-1980s:
each a panel
a gateway into a house
of eternal return
(Dis)quiet into the skin of the tree—
Only the prophets
know what we whisper
to the eagles at the top of the world:
the flesh isn't right,
against the sky
Somewhere
in the middle of the world a monk
wades through canals
to meditate near a Jade Buddha
just beyond the clearing of landmines
outside the temple gates
someone lights a
cigarette and leaves
a shot of whisky
to calm the nerves of a raw Bodhisatta
tortured on a wire
bed somewhere near Phnom Penh
the eagle
nor the squirrel can speak of the pools
of blood in the corner
of an abandoned cell and Simonson
got no text bubbles
for this movement into the gutters
of future.
Huginn 6
I. “Because of the indefinite nature of the human mind, wherever it is lost in ignorance man makes himself the measure of all things.” ― Giambattista Vico
If one says corvidae, one may be oscine passerine birds:
the caw of choughs, the flash of jays
masquerading as hawks, thoughts of blue and black against
the limpid, pale blue of the sky. One may mean
the chatter of magpies,
or the carrion ravens picking the bits of memories
of the dead. If memory speaks for the dead—whispers
to the one-eyed bastard this or that
then I speak for the unformed, the boundless,
the coming into the being. I
bubble up from memory, cut the time with my egg tooth,
each shard into
cathedrals of calcium and half-acknowledged
truth.
II. “Verum esse ipsum factum” - Giambattista Vico
If one says poet, one may mean maker, obscured
by the context of one’s life, beyond the
crafting the words, of thoughts, or memories,
the deep rumbling the body. Once I saw a dead zanate
in a deader panadería, I mistook it’s milk-glazed
eyes for marbles and its black feathers for a ravens.
Not even the decency of using it’s
entrails for divination, but I eat its gizzard out of
respect as if to make
something out of
miasmas of feathers and near-rot.
To say thoughts are like this misses the point: thoughts
are this, poems fastened truther things. Nests
of bone and desiccated hay, hydroscopic to memory
and mythological pretenses to wisdom.
If one says one speaks for thoughts, one speaks for the future
dead. Memory, my brother, we aren’t that different:
spinners of dust, ash, and half-forgotten. Even when the personality
molds, the names abrade from the headstones, and the songs
meter and rhyme lost—we still caw, harshly. Someone
half-blind may call that wisdom.
C Derick Varn is a poet, podcaster, and teacher. He served as assistant editor for Arts and Letters: A Journal of Contemporary Arts, managing editor for the defunct Milkweed Review, founding editor for Former People, and was a reader for Zero Books. He won the Frankeye Davis Mayes/Academy of American Poets Prize in 2003. He is the author of the collections Apocalyptics (Unlikely Books, 2018), and Liberation, and all the other bright etcetera (Mysterioso Books, 2022). He currently lives in Utah but spent most of the last decade outside of the US. He hosts the politics, history, and culture podcast, Varn Vlog. Derick recommends the Huntsman Cancer Institute and Doctors without Borders.